sick-O

Here we are. Three weeks and counting until the move and Adam and I are sick as dogs. Things are absolutley chaotic!! Where to begin....
A week ago, I had come home from work to a lovely mac'n'cheese dinner and a movie (3:10 to Yuma) prepared by my sweet hubby. All of a sudden in the middle of a movie I felt like my eyelashes were folded into my eye. I went to the mirror to look and what did I see? I watched as a blood vessal burst in my eye. WEIRD! So for the last week I have has a Zombie eye! I forget about it because I dont feel it at all.
We went through the drive thru at the bank and the teller kept staring and smiling at me, I couldn't figure out why. As we were driving away I asked Adam why she was acting so odd. He had to remind me that I had a Zombie eyeball.
So needless to say I have been a little stressed. I got sick about 4 days after my eye incident and Adam is only 1 day behind me in our crumminess. I stayed home from 1 and a half days of work and didn't go to church this morning.
And now for the Grand Finale!!!!!!
Adam's grandmother, his last living grandparent, passed away about an hour ago. Adam is in good spirits about it though, she was 84 and smoked like a chimney. All her grandchildren would joke and say that the niccotine had petrified her. The last conversation Adam had with her was really good! She was in a rare 'good mood' and joked and giggled with Adam about how they used to play scrabble together. Also, a few days ago out of the blue she spoke to her younger sister who she hadn't spoken to in about 60 years!!!!! Her sister didn't stop the car when grandma Nell (Adam's grandma) needed to use the restroom, and she wet herself, and told her sister she would never speak to her again. 60 years ago!!!!! Too much work for me!
Crazzyness!! We are very glad that she finally felt like speaking to her sisters. ( I've met them both. They were always so sad whenever Nell came up. It would break your heart!!)
So...it is very chaotic around here and I wish I would write more but i am usually exhausted by the time I get home. We have sold almost all of our belongings. (The big stuff at least!) We only have boxes to bring to Utah now. I guess in a way it is better that Grandma Nell went before we moved because who knows if we would be able to afford travel to come to the funeral.

Update

Wow! Time has just flown by! A whole lot has been going on in our neck of the woods. We have started to buckle down and really get ready for our move. (yeah!!) We have sold our couch and big puffy chair, our kitchen table, and one of our bookcases. So we are making a little extra money and puting it in our savings to get a place to live when we get out there.
I have officially put in my notice! My last day of work is February 26th. I can't wait!!!! I'm sick of it, not because it's a bad place to work but because I am excited to start our next adventure.
It snowed here on Saturday. Just about 2 inches. It didn't stick to the pavement but Adam and I enjoyed watching it fall. We had some friends over for dinner so we rant o the grocery store right as it was starting to really come down to get some makins for dinner.
Other than that we haven't done much. We are just truckin' along trying to pack all of our aquired junk and get rid of the things we dont need. I feel like a pack rat sometimes!
I'll keep you posted on our progress!

OLD SKOOL!!!!!

It's the Walker kids! I stole this pic from mom a long, long time ago. And I wont ever give it back!! It's the only pic I have of all my siblings when we were kids, not to mention the only pic of me that is younger than 15.

Fresh Face

ALLRIGHT!!! I will write another entry! I have been thoroughly harassed to write another entry. I have such a hard time writing on here.... I think about it a lot though.

Mom wanted me to erase that last entry but I'm not going to. That kinda thing doesn't happen very often and I understand it's not good to nurture the negative thoughts less they get burned into your subconscious. But I don't plan on reading it, and I would also like to have a comparison. If I erase it I will forget what I felt like and if I ever get frustated with my hormones and am typing I will be able to remember and stop myself from writing it.

Anyway, I will tell you all about my lovely holidays:

Three days before Christmas I got the Christmas Spirit. It took so long coming this year. Because of our big move coming up Adam and I didn't do any gifts between us, but we did a really good job of gifts for everyone else we needed to give gifts to. I felt like the proficient wife that I am striving to become! On Christmas eve we spent time with my sis-in-law, Shanon. Watched The Christmas Sory ( I love it!!!) and played with the kids (8 and 2). After helping put them to bed we played a game with just the four adults. Stayed awake way too long!!!! It wa the longest game of Settlers of Zarahemla that we have ever played!!! Needless to say we all stayed up way too late. Because Adam and I had kept them up so long playing a game we helped them put their Santa stuff together and it was a lot of fun! I had never done that before. I think it means that I am officially grown up. EEK!! We awoke fairly early (for us!) Christmas Morning and had our special christmas breakfast which has become our family tradition. This year we just had a cheese danish, in the past we make a big flamboyant breakfast, but we had to be at my mother-in-laws house by 12:00. Went to Mom-in-law's, had the gift exchange and ate too much food and had some laughs. Adam and I left after a few hours. Everyone had other family things to do and so the crowd dispersed and us with it. Although the only other thing we had to do was to sit on the couch and do nothing. We watched The Lord of the Rings the Extended version, and followed it up with the next 2 movies over the next couple of days. It really was a perfect Christmas.

That's all for now.
More to come. New Years....

We had a party!!

my argh list

I'm frustrated.

I need to get healthy. My body hurts. I need friends. I need a digital camera. Owen and Melinda gave us one that they had but it doesn't work. It took 2 good pictures when we got it and now it wont work right! ARGH!! I have so many things I want to take pictures of before we move but....anyway.

My body hurts. My teeth need work. My shoulder is hurting, and lately my lower back has been feeling really pinched.
I'm complaining. I'm struggling to stay positive.

Tomorrow is my day off, it will be better.
I'm listening to doo-wop. Makes me really miss singing with Soleigha. Wish she would talk to me. argh again.

All I do is work and sometimes I feel like I'm missing life. I'm too busy to enjoy it. A week will go by and at the end of it I realize I did nothing except work, and maybe watch a movie.

Tomorrow I am going shopping. I have saved up my tips and I really need new church clothes. I will limit myself to a new skirt and a church worthy top. That will make me feel like I have improved my plot. I get so depressed.

It used to be anger. I used to get so mad I would punch things till my knuckles bled. I used to be so angry. Now I get so depressed I withdraw and lay around.

I dont think Adam ever reads this. He would be upset if he knew I was really depressed

Please stop reading this, this is depressing even to read. I'm stopping.
sorry

argh

weeks later....

Wow! has that much time really passed since I last wrote on here! It amazes me how fast the time flies! It doesn't seem like anything has happened since I last wrote but when I stop and think about writing it all I start to get tired. HA! I dont know if it's because I'm lazy or because I have been pretty busy!!
I am sick, or better yet I have been sick for the last week ...or so. It's not really fun. When I am working my hands are constantly wet or in someones wet hair and it seems that as soon as my hands get on soemone's head my nose starts to run. Now this may not seem like a big deal to some of you but I assure it is a huge dilemma. Here is why; in beauty school we are taught that while you are touching someone (doing there hair) you limit the amount of touching yourself (ie; face, hair, skin) as much as possible. There are a few reasons for this. One is that there are skin diseases and disorders that can be passed a long from the client to me. Another is the other way around, I dont want to get them sick, they dont know what I have (not that I have anything) and they can easily blame me for whatever they feel I gave them. Lastly, it is a customer service issue. Once I divert my attention to the itch I have on my arm or in this case dealing with my runny nose, I am not paying attention to the person in my seat therefore I'm not focusing on their haircut. It sounds extreme but I assure you with the amount of hairstylist in this world, it makes a huge difference! Granted there are those faithful clients you've had for a while who are a bit more forgiving than others but.....more often than not, you can be replaced even if they say otherwise. They would rather not have the hassle of finding another hairstylist and "training" them. Back to my nose: This is a SERIOUS issue. In order to stop my runny nose from dripping down my lip (gross, to see and to taste) I have to have a kleenex. You may say 'no big deal. keep a kleenex in your pocket and keep cutting'. Not so simple. Cleanliness is HUGE in this industry and who wants to see someone wipe their nose (even with a kleenex) and then touch them? Not very many people. SO here is what I have to do. I have a bottle of hand sanitizer right next to my station, and everytime I have to wipe or blow my nose in to the kleenex I have to use some hand sanitizer. You can imagine that that combined with my hands being in water all day it is surprising that my hands aren't bleeding as we speak. I believe the only thing saving my hands is conditoner. When I shampoo someones hair I use conditioner and that is why I still have skin on my hands.

Anyways, that was my rant.

We aren't really celebrating Christmas this year. And oddly enough I'm not too tore up about it. Maybe that means I am offiacially grown up. I dont think we will by eachother gifts. Adam will probably will get me something though. He likes to break his own rules. It's sweet because I know he just wants to see me happy but it drives me crazy!!! If he goes with out a gift from me I go without a gift from him. I'm ok with that, and we need to save up for moving.

Ramble ramble. I took a 3 hour nap today when I came home from church and now it's 12:30 at night and I'm not really tired.

My Mind

Well, a few weeks has gone by since I have written and honestly it will probably be like that a lot. I rarely feel like chatting or writing once I get home after working and if I try to make myself write more often I would just sit here staring at the blank screen until my eyes hurt. SO, you get what you get.
Here I am on a sunday night at 10:00 drinking Tension Tamer with honey. When I get to the last 4 ounces of my cup I go back to the kitchen and fill my cup almost full again with hot water which I'm sure is something I have picked up from my mother watering down everything I drank as a child.
My husband kind of shakes his head as he sees me fill the cup back up. "I just dont like the concentrated stuff at the bottom!" I exclaim.
He looks back at the video game he is playing, Madden I think, " I didn't say anything!" he says smiling.
I have a lot on my mind right now. Moving - Danny needs to get a hold of Adam. Adam needs to figure out what he is going to do about UCS - his power-washing business. Will his partner be willing to sell his half to Adam?
I still need to hang those red and white sparkly snowflake things at work that were supposed to be up at the beginning of the month but I have been holding out as long as I can to appease the anarchist in me to help deplete the already over commercialized Christas Holiday. Whatever happened to Thanksgiving? I need to print out the cosmo licensing transfer form so I can transfer my license. Man, I am really having a hard time typing on Mac's new flat keyboard!
I really dont want to wait until spring to move. I am having such a hard time focusing at work. I hate being a slack boss but I just dont care if so and so thought that today was a jeans day and is wearing jeans instead of slacks.
My friend Carol called a little while ago and I had absolutley nothing to report.
I have a lot of not important things on my mind too. I love Tom Waits. Ok...no wait, I dont love him, I love his music. My all time favorite song is one he wrote. It's not particularly fantastic but it makes me get really cool pictures in my head and if I was much of an artist I would draw it. Actually, if I really try I'm not that bad, but I have to admit that I am scared to try drawing what I picture because I know it wont do it justice. If your wondering, the song is Time. It's the last song on the Beautiful Maladies album. The song has a lot of different things in it but the thing I picture has to do with a girl and a razor and dead pigeons at her feet. Ok, I realized that may make you thnk that the song is dark but it really isn't. It makes me miss walking around the train yard in Bellingham with a big 50's style furcoat (fake) and a bottle of whisky. Wow, once again that sounds a lot worse than it really was. I should change the subject.
I made bacon today. Yes, Bacon. For those of you who have never ever eaten with Adam and I over the last 4 years, we used to be vegetarian. Since we have started eating meat we have both eaten bacon but, we have not bought it to make. We had breakfast for dinner and Adam, yes Adam, suggested I make the bacon that he purchased the other day. I admit I was a little surprised! We still dont eat steak or red meat and I really have no desire to.
This whole entry has been pretty boring for somone whe doesn't know me, maybe even for those who do. Anyway I dont have a whole lot going on right now. Just a lot of hurry up and wait.

Adam's birthday is on Saturday the 17th. That's THIS saturday. Wow. He wants a new watch because his old one broke. I am getting off of work extra early.
Here is something funny. Adam teaches the 10-11 year old boys in primary at church. 2 weeks ago they had a lesson on bareing your testimony and the proper way to do that, what to say other than the primary testimony answers. The coming sunday was fast and testimony meeting so he made a deal with those boys that if they all got up and bore there testimony he would do it as well and he would take all 4 boys to see the Bee movie that just came out. So on fast sunday we saw 3 little boys look back at Adam and then all get up at once and then the other 1 followed right after. Adam then got up and bore his like he promised. After the meeting he had parents come up to him just floored that there 11 year old sons got up and gave a great testimony!!! Now, this Saturday, on his birthday, Adam and I have to take 4 little boys to see a movie!!! It will be so much fun!!!
This has been a huge babble entry but I figure I need to get in the habit of writing even if I dont have anything to say.

I am starting to read Beowolf. I never read it in school because for Junior English my teacher was really a baseball coach and he would read to us. I'm sorry but who reads out loud to 17 year olds right after lunch and doesn't expect them to fall asleep!! In any case, I dont remember what books we read in Junior year because my teacher was dumb. It's Adam's favorite book and he read it first and wants me to read it before we see the movie. We like to watch movies.

My hands are cold so maybe I should stop typing. I will write more a lot sooner than I did last time. I need to go knit to warm my hands up, besides the colts are doing better now so I can stand to watch the rest of the game.
Goodnight